MOTHERHOOD IS  DAUNTING

One milestone after another it's a roller coaster. Some times as a mother i cry for my past carefree life before getting busy with another chore of my little one. Other days, I fantasize about the time I could spend with myself ;

oh the much needed me time that is rarely available.

But now a wrecking ball has hit me like a ton of bricks ; My little boy has grown & is very much independent, can stay the night without me, play on his own can sleep on his own. I will be soon sending him away from me . 

He'd start play group soon. This mama aint ready. I still want to hold him closer and hug him . I still need him to look for me when he goes to sleep. .

Sometimes i worry , trying to do my best for the next step in his life stressing myself out how will he progress into it.  Other times when he is sound asleep, or talking almost complete sentences in his own language, i just can't believe my eyes how he has grown and how quickly it happened. Where did the time flew, i haven't cuddled  him enough, we haven't snuggled in bed enough times. I want to hold the running sand of time for him and me to hang on to his beautiful for a bit longer. 

Becoming a mother;

 BECOMING A MOTHER 

Two years back, on a cold wet morning of February i became a mother to a beautiful boy. I never imagined in my life that i could love him for i liked girls more, but here I was ready to sacrifice my whole being just to keep him fed and healthy.

I am not a very confident person but holding my little human gives me a boost of confidence that i have never experienced in my life..

Lots of looks, even more suggestions on how to raise the baby; some based on experience, while most felt like what we did and you shouldn't do..

The mother is the most strong part of a woman. ready to do anything for the baby even it meant hurting the very person it is part of... Yes, us mothers do go far and beyond just to keep the baby happy. Negligence become second nature. Postponing our personal needs is an unescapable routine.

SILENCE : A LANGUAGE OF PURITY 

 Silence is probably the most and only common language around the globe, used by each and every person some time or the other in their lives.

 But contrary to its wide reach; it's understood only by the few. Sometimes they can be someone pretty close or a total random stranger could do what the inner circle couldn't. The ones willing to pay attention and time can understand it.

  There is no pretending in this, Silence doesn't do formality or beating about the Bush. It only speaks plain truth; conveys the genuine emotion with all its depth and every associated feel. 

  It is also the language of nature. Quietly sitting under the stars, walking down a bank of river, enjoying the horizon in ankle deep sea water with ever shifting sand or simply taking in the fresh aroma of earth after a little rain all can be listened only in silence; healing the mind and soul as we enjoy a little conversation with what's around.

  

WHY DO PEOPLE OVER REACT ??!

The Need Of Overreaction

OVER REACTION.

 How do you define it scientifically or psychologically.

What is it ? Why people over react ? What is the need of it ?

These questions were prodding on my brain for a while now.

Recently ,I finished a book by Paulo Coelho THE ZAHIR.

It answered the last question and explained the other two for me..

Over reaction has a stigma surrounding it. Society consider it bad..whenever they see someone over reacting to something , they prefer to ignore them and later avoid them altogether.. It worsens the situation.

Overreaction is directly related to TRUST.

A kid always cries loudly in front of parent only.

So if someone over reacts in front of their colleague or friend, that means they trust them enough.

Sometimes over reaction is the reaction that didn't came out when it should may be because we were too little ,or naive or just too shocked to fathom everything that instead of tears and shrieks something got buried inside.

And after growing up anything that has a slightest connection to that reaction or when we finally understand what happened to us, it comes out and feels like 

over reaction to the ones who doesn't know your past. 

To sum up: over reaction is always the past reaction the didn't occurred.

THE NEED OF OVERREACTION:

In THE ZAHIR , PAULO talks about emptying the space occupied by pains of the past and opening up to new experience. To reborn and become a better version of your ownself.

For that, talk about your past to the ones you trust and to the strangers until the story no longer hurts , it's no longer the part of you. It's just something that happened. And you are no more affected by it. 

It Talks about freeing yourself from THE PRISON OF YOUR PAST.. 

So, we only overreact in front of the ones we trust , and it's important to free us from our own prison.

My advice : if someone trusts you enough to overreact in front of you, don't tell them anything , quietly listen ,They are pushing open that door , they are finally breaking the shackles.

If you interrupt and tell them, THEY ARE OVERREACTING. 

the door will shut on their faces and they will be trapped again.

 My prayer:  I hope and pray you all find the one who will listen to your rambling infinite times and hold your hand through it and when you are done the drape their arms around your shoulder and whisper in your ear that you are the strongest person they know and it's okay to breakdown.

Cause all of us deserve to be free.

Note: there are still a lot of aspects I haven't talked about and I don't know about.

I want to convey the message

"Over reaction is not something wrong . it's the sign that something is wrong"