MOTHERHOOD IS  DAUNTING

One milestone after another it's a roller coaster. Some times as a mother i cry for my past carefree life before getting busy with another chore of my little one. Other days, I fantasize about the time I could spend with myself ;

oh the much needed me time that is rarely available.

But now a wrecking ball has hit me like a ton of bricks ; My little boy has grown & is very much independent, can stay the night without me, play on his own can sleep on his own. I will be soon sending him away from me . 

He'd start play group soon. This mama aint ready. I still want to hold him closer and hug him . I still need him to look for me when he goes to sleep. .

Sometimes i worry , trying to do my best for the next step in his life stressing myself out how will he progress into it.  Other times when he is sound asleep, or talking almost complete sentences in his own language, i just can't believe my eyes how he has grown and how quickly it happened. Where did the time flew, i haven't cuddled  him enough, we haven't snuggled in bed enough times. I want to hold the running sand of time for him and me to hang on to his beautiful for a bit longer.